i'm so sinful that i can't even repent and give thanks on my own but only by grace. so it's not by works.
kind of frustrating that i have to wait patiently when i wish everything could just be done now.
i hate that my heart is so hard and calloused that i'm so blind and can't see Him. like the daily bread said yesterday, if you don't clean regularly, your heart will become so infested that it would take a lot of work to make it in good condition again. i couldn't see that yesterday but my heart is definitely like that.

nothing can ever, ever, ever separate us from Your love. not even the way i am now.
i won't give up b/c You'll never give up on me. i know You're moving me closer to You.